First real experience

First love the most painful no doubt.

Getting hit with unexpected anguish can never be easy. The sheer prick of the inexpressible. The flowing of emotions that have never even felt on that magnitude. "Why" being yelled through the echo chamber that is your very soul. The uttering of wrong reasons, thoughts, and explainations darting at you. The numbing experience that you learn from and carry with you forever.

I Got That Feeling...

feeling so alive, feeling like i could fly
feeling like i got something that i've always been denied
living in the moment, seeing smiling faces
moving in a direction that doesn't work like races.
i'm loving every minute, enjoying every second
only giving up my time for these awesome little presents
one way trip and no return flights
i'm on my way to amazing heights.
up up and away no coming down,
until it's decided and i fall without a sound.

Love I Give

Love I Give

Love is something that I don’t have plenty of

It’s all going to only you

Don’t expect me to lie about it girl

Because ive always been true when it comes to you

Give me the chance to admonish all my givens

correct the same mistakes that I always seem to give in.

nothing can explain how I feel in this very minute

just explain what im trying to do with my unheavenly beginning.

Love is blind like the justice that eludes this very moment

just to make fun at the last thing I ever wanted

keeping all the sane ones away from all my loven

give me all the love and respect, I always seem to punt it.

Love is something that I don’t have plenty of

It’s all going to only you

Don’t expect me to lie about it girl

Because ive always been true when it comes to you

All I ever say to you is yes and maybe so and every time Ive ever asked all I get is a freakin no

don’t give me that look you know exactly what I mean

just leading me on like every good looking female I ever seen.

A+ listed like I told you I never wanted to invest in,

now do you see why I can’t say it wasn’t expected?

I just want to get that goal in the battle field

not to get blown up and come back like a tattered shield. 

Love

Love is such a pain,

nothings ever same,

my one wish is simple,

love me unconditional

unconditional love

is few and above

all else can wait but love is always.

When it comes down to me,

nothing surprises me,

been around for so long ancient times ago.

Love is blind they say,

and it makes you sway,

do things that were once impossible.

Aim high to the sky,

use your heart inside

dont let it control what you know are lies.

Love is such a pain,

nothings ever same,

my one wish is simple,

love me unconditional

unconditional love

is few and above

all else can wait but love is always.

Can't imagine why people always cry,

when the person was worse in every way.

Yes, you gave them your heart

and they stomped it apart

but its still not a shock when they move on

All i can say and replay today

keep ya head up high and continue.

All is not lost, cliche at all cost

plenty of fish in that deep blue see